*Days they force you back under those covers
lazy mornings they multiply...
but glory's waiting outside your window
So wake on up from yourslumber.... Baby, open up your eyes...
West Coast Greetings friend!
It's currently 2pm from where I reside. I'm surrounded by the rolling hills of wine country.
I'm writing you from a Starbucks that biked to.
{Don't worry, I pinched myself too...}
Before I ventured out to the west side of the nation, I was plagued by heartache. Why? because...
Break ups suck.
Right? Right
Especially when the person you broke up with was supposed to be "the one".
Right? Right.
& now your trying to figure out how you got where you did. What you could have done differently to change it....followed by realizing you did nothing to cause anything "wrong" or "bad" to make anything happen. That you aren't in control of your own life.... and then you accept the tough realization that you wouldn't want a single thing to have changed from what has unfolded.
& you fully embrace the time & place & the circumstances & all that has brought you to this moment.
Right? Right.
I feel like my heart & head have been on the craziest almost-8-week roller coaster. And that parts of them were put in a blender and then some really mean source of energy hit the power button. & pureed everything.
I'm not going to paint a pretty picture. Heart ache is messy. It brings out ugliness & exposes some of the corners that often times most people will never see. I'm telling you the truth. Not how I want you to think or what I'd like you to think. Mostly because through the brutality of what can some days feel like a never ending bad movie, joy resounding & adventure awaited is often times just on the other side...
Tongues are violent & personal & focused
Tough to beat with your steady mind
But hearts are stronger afterbroken
So, wake on up from yourslumber
Baby, open up your eyes...
Joy Resounding.
Adventure Awaited.
It's pretty plain. And even more so simple. You have choice.
You stay weak in your own darkness. You stay bound by the heartache. You even stay entranced with your situation. And victimize yourself. You let others patronize your pain. You give others power of your moods. Your feelings. You stay simple. And manageable. & slowly but surely you let yourself
defeat you.
Or.....
All these victims
Stand in line for
The crumbs that fall from thetable
Just enough to get by
All the while,
Your invitation....
You push against the grain. You can trust God. Who won't ever lead you to brokenness.
Who just so happens to specialize in restoration.
You can dig deep. Really deep.
You can take back what's been stolen. taken. or even what was freely given and not returned.
You can reclaim your strength.
And own it.
And move onward, forward into joy resounding & adventure awaited....
{{I've seen Him everywhere}}
...Taste of the breakthrough & open wide...
I can honestly say that the past week of my life spent in Southern California was filled with glimpses and visions of the woman God is making me to be. Sometimes to really see God, we have to step out of what we know and enter into where there is no framework in order to allow Him to start reconstructing & instructing the road mapping...
& sometimes you're blessed enough to have lives intersect yours along the way that bring you laughter...
I just needed a wake up.
I can say in full sincerity that my life isn't really working out the way I planned...
& you know what. I thank God it isn't....
... Join me?
Sing it like we used to
& we'll dance like we wantto
Come on, darlin' & open up your eyes...
*Slumber by Need To Breathe
